I keep pondering and pondering and pondering about why I’m not getting any sales. Part of me really just wants to give up. I was so close today but then I sat there and stared at my website in disgust. The thing that disgusted me the most was that I was advertising some clothing that I wouldn’t be able to fit. That was a “you dumb***” moment for me.I am a BBW. I have curves and according to my significant other, alot of them. So I know I am still new to this whole “advertising products” thing. I looked at this swimsuit collection I had on my website and couldn’t stand it. I couldn’t fit into that!
I have to be all about me. Who am I? Who are my friends? What is my culture? Even though I can answer all of those things with one word, I don’t think before today I fully understood what being myself meant. Im advertising the exact opposite of who I am. I was so caught up in ” I know this is going to get me sales I just have to give the people what they want.”
I carried that with me up until now, knowing that I am not a people pleaser and I refuse to persuade an audience that I can not relate to. Subconsciously this was something I was doing. I feel ashamed, embarrassed, and ignorant not even thinking twice about what I was doing. I need to stick to what I know and what I thought I knew wasn’t getting me anywhere.
I am proud of myself because this is growth for me and what I stand for. I’m on a mission and in a chapter where I define who I am and when I finally get that definition certified through my soul, I’ll have the greatest powerful moment and my world will light up with strength and dignity.
